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May all sentient beings be endowed with happiness and the cause of happiness. EDITORIAL3 more Glimpses from California. The first Glimpse from California. 2 new scratches on paper. One new scratch on paper (but for a change from last year ^_^). Just made a few esthetic changes. If you still see black menu buttons, empty your cache. Following, one new scratch on paper. One new scratch on paper. One new scratch on paper. One new scratch on paper. Ai, be, see. We are still alive:). I'm so sorry for leaving it on ice for almost 3 months. As a matter of fact, there are some things underway. There's one poem called "In the heart" which I have been uncovering/unraveling already since late 2019. At some point, it had 18 verses, but its entirety and structure has been eluding me the whole time. But somehow, I have a gut feeling that it might finally reveal itself soon. Bear with us. Next, me, Jacqueline and River have been engaging in very interesting discussions - the output of which shall form the next steps in the most recent essay: The haunted house of the mindscape and perhaps even more. It just needs time... hehe. But expect more entries in the near future. So, for now at least 1 new scratch on paper :o). One new scratch on paper. Hello world! It's been a while. Lately, there's been no poetry, and since I've mostly been minimizing my screen time, not much literary work either. We shall see. In the meantime, I'll be working on a serialized essay called The haunted house of the mindscape (edited: 23/9/24) - which I shall be adding here piece by piece, among others for the aforementioned reasons. However, there is a unique opportunity for you all to become part of the process (more on that inside). Please enjoy and have a wonderful time! The Tornado - A song version of "The Humble Way". My conclusion after observing the river: it flows. Don't search, find. Payed a visit to an ordinary house in Montréal with a message on a pebble. One new scratch on paper. One new scratch on paper. "In the midst of the clouds of
impermanence and illusion
Dances the lightning of life:
Can you say you won’t die tomorrow?
Practice the dharma.
Now is the time to conquer
the citadel of Great Bliss." The lightning - Inspired by the quote of one of the most extraordinary realized meditation masters of the 20th century. Nothing but mental constructions. Time flies (and other insect). The Journey: Chapter 2, Interlude. The Journey: Interlude. The Journey: Chapter 1. Years ago, I wrote a three-part short story called "The Journey", which had arisen from an even earlier script that I had had written for a 10min movie for a friend of mine. The story kinda kept growing on me to the point where I decided to try to write a small novel. Or perhaps, to start writing and see where it goes. After some 3 years of very occasional writing, I seem to be stuck half way through. So, to find a new motivation, and hopefully some new perspective, I'll be making short serialized stories and let's see where it goes ^_^. Btw, there is a contact link in "Credits" - so feedback is more than welcome!:). Let's begin with the prologue. It's been a while since I made a shoutout here. This one might be a bit of a reminiscence. Over the years I've learnt that there are perphaps more readers than I had previously imagined after deciding to revive this humble project from the high school days. First, we used to call it a "discmag", because it would be attached to a monthly gaming magazine which came with a cd containing a few game demos, other utilities, drivers, patches and a readers' section with a load of these creative works. Since this had been back in the 90's and early 2000's, before most people here had ADSL, or perhaps any access to the internet whatsoever, we would create it as a fully offline HTML site, put it on a floppy disc and send by post in an envelope. Imagine that. Back then, 'the adults' would say that we are completely cut off from reality, only caring about playing computer games 24/7. (If only they could imagine what was to come in the following years, hehe...) Nevertheless, most of these magazines were written by exacly these nocturnal "basement-dwelling dorks". Of course, a big portion of the content would be dedicated to video games, hardware, software, and stuff around that. However, not only there were much more than that, but even the computer dork stuff were often written as mostly coherent essays. Lots of the discmags were created by groups of friends of different interests and genders, so there would be many different topics, including book/film reviews, general topic essays (sometimes philosophical ones), fiction stories (some of them serialized), even poetry. It was basically exactly like a paper-magazine, ideal to be consumed from the beginning to the end. Perhaps at a late night hour while drinking tea. Thinking of it now, it seems that the 'primordial force' of creativity is indeed the desire to show off. Its power to overcome apathy effectively makes it the propelant of any culture. Hopefully it'll stand the test of AI... One new scratch on paper. One new scratch on paper. Who am I ? One new scratch on paper. There are great many various texts about how to practice zen. Yet still, this one somehow stands out. 坐禅和讃 (Zazen Wasan) - The Ode To Sitting Practice, written by 白隠慧鶴 (Hakuin Ekaku). I was introduced to this text the very same day I met my root teacher 慈雲慧純 (Jiun Ejun) and we would recite it, along with The Heart sutra (coming soon), at the beginning of every practice session. Despite my very low potential in the practice itself, this text has stayed firmly in my memory ever since. PS: this translation is a first draft and will be gradually edited. Found a little piece from the end of the year: Winter migration. Starting to work on including a compilation of the two 馬王堆 (Mawangdui) excavated texts - which are so far the oldest preserved versions of Laozi. Both of them are a bit different from the later "standard" version from 王弼 (Wang Bi) which I have been using. I'm deeply convinced that by comparing the slight differences in the wording one can get even closer to the originally intended meaning. Ten pictures of [taming a] bull is an ancient guide text describing the eons old search for the most elusive of all - our true self. Not a poem... and 1 new scratch on paper. First draft (translation & commentaries) of Laozi finished. Let me begin with a little Laozi report. Translation: all completed (still to be polished, though...); commentaries: 60/81 completed. To make it not so easy, I've decided to add a word-by-word translations to each chapter, in an attempt to bring more insight into the original meaning. hopefully, all three together will facilitate even deeper comprehension. Working on that too. On another note, I finally managed to finish a piece I'd been working on since spring. Hope you'll enjoy The pine tree. Hopefully, it'll find its way to the future music album, which may or may not happen. Keep your fingers crossed! The light was hurt is a piece written in the early fall of 2020, inspired by The Book of Changes. Unfortunately it still feels very valid... Follows a new piece called Tired. A song adaptation of Come back. Clouds and Name unknown. I have wished #2. It's Karma, my friends... just cause and effect. By the way (pun intended), perhaps you've noticed that I'm continously adding translations of chapters of Laozi as well as commentaries, without advertising it here each time. Therefore look directly there for new beta content (sometimes daily or every few days, as long as I can keep the pace). Enjoy! Just put together a first draft of the Foreword for Laozi, which hopefully will also serve as a sort of an introduction into the motivation and basic mechanics of the philosophy an its applicability to our modern life + my personal rant... A more technical introduction to follow. Happy male water tiger year, everyone. Welcome to this tiny little corner of the internet where almost no roads lead. Hehe. I haven’t been very active around here these days, yet I am working little by little on the Laozi translation and commentary, which kind of seems to hold the most meaning especially in these, to put it mildly, somewhat challenging times.
The tribe whose name's fun to say. Sky. Free. Laozi: A practical and comprehensive translation (beta) is a work in progress, my latest attempt to make this singular and extraordinary manual how to live a happy, peaceful and meaningful life accessible to everyone, for I am deeply convinced that especially in these trying times, we all can immensely benefit from it. Please have patience, it's a rather difficult endeavour. I will add new bits and pieces right from the oven and gradually polish it with the help from beta-testers, so we can make the final result as clear and eloquent as possible. You are all welcome to watch it grow and evolve, just be aware that it's far from esthetically finished. A very simple and politically incorrect analysis. Solidarity destroys fear. Turning outwards, we seek dangers. Turning inwards forces us to protect the most precious of gems - unconditional compassion. Fear is the fruit of attachment, so let's don't lean on it, let's lean on cause and effect - it never yields to anything. If the causes are right, shelves will be filled and we will appreciate them even more than before. Darkness is absence of light, therefore it cannot be measured. It either is or isn't. What's measured is the intensity of light. Happiness is absence of suffering. Either is or isn't. What's measured is the intensity of suffering. Freedom is absence of limit, therefore outer freedom has never truly existed in the first place. Thus the only way how to imprison someone is to take way their inner freedom and the only way to do that is to make them disregard it. In other words to make us grasp at the illusion of the outer one. If causes and conditions are right, then empty shelves will be filled, things might even return to our Relative "normal" (coz nothing is ever as it was a second ago). If there is a tunnel in a mountain wall, we can pass thru it. But a tunnel - as everything - is fully dependent on causes and conditions, therefore someone has to dig thru the mountain and make the tunnel - stable enough not to collapse etc. Before the tunnel exists, we can try to run the was as hard as we can but will only hurt ourselves. the harder we try to fight consequence, the more we'll hurt. Not everyone is capable of building tunnels, and if we are one of those who aren't - we shouldn't try it coz we'll very well may cause much much suffering. Hence if you really dont know how to build one, the best course of action is to wait till causes and conditions come together and the tunnel exists, while helping others bring their focus from fear to compassion, with ourselves (all of us together) including those poor politicians, making that chaos, coz they are even more confused and thus suffering inside greatly, their wealth is useless for that; with the police - who in best case scenario have no option but to carry out their unfortunate orders, worst case scenario are totally blinded by their own fear and ignorance and hurt others intentionally... If this kind of suffering doesn't deserve compassion, I don't know what does...We are all part of the all-pervasive chain of cause and effect. Let's make as good causes as we can. Dear diary... Come back to the deepermost place of your heart. Do not fight your fear. Learn its true nature that is ignorance and dissolve it by awareness. 1 new Scratch on paper I am water is a piece of a new project that's coming to life in cooperation with an incredible being and a worderful voice owner called River. 1 new Scratch on paper A muse found me in the maze. Concentration on space is a simple and effective technique to relax your tight muscles and ease your stressed mind. A simple meditation about The wasp in the kitchen problem and its (anti)solutions. Nothing but a student's lament... Desire, loyalty for a reward and forced respect. These three have zero real and lasting value and whatever is built out of them has the structural integrity of a sand castle. Nevertheless, they seem to be the main constituents of most of our social systems. As one old proverb says: Nothing will change if nothing changes.. Look outside! All is still... The third song of the forest dakkini and Don't believe me! Thoughts and Reminiscence. for W. Travelers' dilemma comes from the same instance (spontaneous hike) as Ode to forever. Look deep into the April face, a change is clearly taking place. Four and one. Form. Hello there! It has been five and half years since the beginning of this little experiment that at first, had been just a little distraction, but then a “serious” idea of a book came by relatively fast. Now, I would like to think that the actual book is in its final stages. It is surely going to take some more time, but I wanted to share this tiny little update with you, especially since there have been no new posts since May. I do have some new pieces still in progress, but in the same time i feel the book’s content should be saturated by now. It is going to be a selection containing mostly the poems from this site, including the four part story called The Journey, and beautiful illustrations by a dear bear-friend mine. So, to all of you my (probably few but) patient readers, I thank from the bottom of my heart. There is not much more to say, other than Be good, make yourself a good cup of and maybe drop by every now and then for some new or old inspiration. When you look at the stars... 2 new Scratches on paper and 1 more poem in Hanshan and Shide. There are so many ways to enjoy the nature. But only if you find a moment... 1 more poem in Hanshan and Shide. The Sunset and The Moon. Sometimes we like to picture ourselves in a golden palace, even-though our lives might be more similar to houses of cards. Let's be romantic and get carried away by a little room song. 3 new Scratches on paper. 1 new Scratch on paper. The natural state of the mind. A kind of a meditation support for the dream-yoga practice. The dream dakini. "There is no grace in victory. The one who glorifies it, must revel in bloodshed". (Laozi; KungFu: TLC)
2 new Scratches on paper. Another piece in Stillness. 5 more poems in Hanshan and Shide. 1 new Scratch on paper. Nostalgia never serves anything good. Trust me on that. If we long for something long gone and/or try to recreate some mood or circumstances we used to have, becoming frustrated when some aspect of it is different than before, we can hardly 'refind' some old happiness... Insd let's work for happiness that is timeless and not dependent on some everchanging circumstances or conditions. Will you? 2 new Scratches on paper. A hint and 1 new Scratch on paper. 2 new Scratches on paper. 2 new Scratches on paper. An endeavor that once started as a short movie script for a friend of mine, but lately I've been transforming it little by little into a complete story called The journey. This one was born somewhere above Siberia, in the “heavens” around flight-level 350. Leaving Japan, never easy… It is called Secret deal. 1 new Scratch on paper. 2 new Scratches on paper. The spirit of the sea and 8 new Scratches on paper. Eternal romance and 2 new Scratches on paper. I'm not really sure when did I write-and-forget-to-post this, perhaps last summer. Seems like a good way to start 2018 anyway - with an empty attempt to make others forget their cultural, ethnical and religious prejudice and live together happily ever after... (I seriously can't believe I'm writing this fully sober.) Perhaps I just miss those times when people cared about truth, justice, solidarity, etc. Anyway, it's more of a "to be continued brainstorming" than a complete essay. So enjoy: The perception of cultures. Contemplative mind and 3 new Scratches on paper. 1 new Scratch on paper. The flow of time and 3 new Scratches on paper. 2 new Scratches on paper. 3 new Scratches on paper. 7 new Scratches on paper. Hehe, two pieces I forgot to post long time ago. The digestive song and About fanatism. 5 new Scratches on paper. 2 new Scratches on paper. So it’s been more than three years since the beginning of this little poetic endeavor and the first book is finished and hopefully might even get published one day. Fingers circled (^_^).
One more poem in Hanshan and Shide. I often choose you over others. Looks like there was a glitch so I have to repost Silence, I am dressed and Today's society. Sorry for the inconvenience. Greatest treasures. Do we even see them?... The meaning/purpose of life is spending time. Nothing else. But one must indeed see its complexity in order to grasp its simpleness. Therefore let's care more about spending it well and less about dreams and illusions of our achievents that are similar to reflections on bubbles. Sometimes a single pinch is enough and they are gone... July showers, After rain and My inspiration. Birds and The humble way. It's really nice to once in a while have your breath taken away by something that seems like the "true" perfection. To me it happens so rarely, I truly almost forgot how it feels like. Though trust me, the best way for it to stay so perfect, is if it stays in that form. For it all happens within us and sometimes the more we try to confront those "dreams", the less "dreamy" they tend to become... Principles of beauty. Smelling flowers and Rejoicing solitude. Let the Sun keep shining and let me be a poet in this time. Since long time ago, I’ve been planing on this, but as always, had to wait for the right inspiration. Although I can’t promise there will be no further modifications, it somehow feels more complete now. Hopefully, you will also share this feeling. Let’s all enjoy The Future again. Often I leave behind the city and go back to a precious place. This place isn't fix in space - it is rather a quality that you can find every once in a while, when your heart is peaceful and open to the spirits of nature. Then all your questions might be answered, if you listen carefully enough. Let's remember someone of an extraordinary talent for words and underline statements that though often missunderstood and taken as dark, depressive, full of despair, were actually not only very true, but also incredibly full of energy and firmness of the mind, showing us how to fight our inner demons, accept what cannot be changed and thus push the darkness of our own creation away. Give me absolute control, over every living soul and So long, Leonard. Secondly, once again, I couldn't avoid mentioning certain development around us. For all who love the feeling. The lake dakini - A poem that you might understand better if you are a tantric or/and a theoretical physicist (which in a way isn't that different). I'm not kidding! ^_^ May. After a year and almost a week. (...and the best thing is that it wasn't intentional. It just happened...) Cold. Well, let's celebrate and hope that this new year of the fire rooster will be less intense than the previous one. Let's hope it will be fortunate and bring hope and happiness to all living beings. And most importantly, let's make it so! It's not the easiest thing to translate a poem from another language, especially when you are the original author... At some point you'll often have no choice but to give up on some aspects of the original meaning, no matter how hard you try. However, that doesn't necessarily mean that you won't come up with some other idea that may make the final product perhaps even more interesting. I shall thusly hope that's what just happened here ^_^. The song of the world #5 (edited: 17/2/21) . Let's play the like game. After some time, three pieces are coming to keep us company. First, I have been silent about it so far but let wonders happen, now I am making a political comment here...muhehe. Or, perhaps I will let the affection of trees make it for me. Next, something about a tornado. And finally (at least for a while), I will tell you how I gave you diamonds (edited: 17/1/19). - don't miss it. Something of a confession of a pacifist... ^_^. Well, the fire monkey is known to be challenging, but this year has been one hell of a roller-coaster ride so far. Just remember: There's always hope, no matter how desolate and lost this world may seem. The Future revealed. Took me few months to put this one together, but something tells me, this is a very good time to revisit the Future. Thank you Leonard Cohen. Wish a good rebirth for you. Fall. The Riddle of Life. Warning: Deciphering it might bring harmony to your life. No matter how busy we are, we should always enjoy deeply The time of tea. I hope you don't mind but rather relax in summer afternoon. One more poem in Hanshan and Shide. This first began as an editorial entry for the 'Regular maintenance of the soul' set of poems. However it evolved into something resembling more the 'Everyday life' topic, which was one of the first articles in this version. Hence so shall be. The Everyday life: Part 2. The Song of the World (edited: 17/1/20) is another one based on my early work that was written for the first version of Sunrise around 12 years ago. One more poem in Hanshan and Shide. We've been dark enough lately. It's time to get outside of our winter cocoons and get rid of everything that prevents our hearts from rejoicing and feeling peaceful. Maybe it's time for a spring romance, but let's not forget the regular maintenance of the soul. Need an effective way to get rid of your unnecessary garbage? Try The dumpsite of souls. Wow, I gotta be having some crisis at the moment... I keep writing yet always get stuck on the final corrections. Some time ago, I came across some of my early pieces from when I was 16 or so. I vividly remember writing The Night for the very first version of this website. Although now translated I kept it as close to the original as possible. Following, the Refractions of dawn. One more poem in Hanshan and Shide. There are many places of great value. Places where people go to recharge their wallet or karma and hunt merits, hence some call them "important". Then there are places where people go for neither money, nor merits. Where people go to recharge their soul. Although the difference is really just within ourselves and those two kinds of places usually are the same, sometimes, they are not. Then just a few people care about their existence and recognize their value. Today I shall tell you of such a place. Come, think with me, of the stories of leaves in the wind. By this day, we are greeting the evermoving Monkey with the element of fire on the proverbial throne of the Twelve animals:) Happy new year! 明けまして御目出度うご座います。新年快樂。ལོ་གསར་ལ་བཀྲ་ཤིས་བདེ་ལེགས། Thanks to the very warm winter this year, it's much nicer to sit outside and watch the nightsky with only few clouds sdily passing by...Haiku. Seriously, don't pay any attention, just scrrawwl on. Found an oasis, while in Tokyo (place I call "ant hell"). Near a thousand years old temple, a hermits' cabin in a forest by a waterfall with pristine water. Definitely worth stopping by. For those who like it really hot:) (the weather, of course) Kissed by the summer, you will be. Updated Hanshan and Shide. The highway of life. Speed limit: 186,000mi/sec. Our lives are usually full of stereotypes. Mostly, we consider them to be something bad, something that keeps us from enjoying life. Often they are. However, thats not their fault at all. Just take a moment and realize, how many sentient beings have been and will be killed and tortured by knife. And yet, we don't despise knives. I even dare to say the civilization as we know it wouldn't exist without them. Therefore, things are neither bad, nor good in their nature. A tool; a weapon - those are merely images/concepts, created in our brain and heart. The result of their doing is completely our responsibility. Stereotypes are no different. they are tools we can harm ourselves with, as well as tools we can use to achieve inner peace. As soon as the weather allows, my stereotype of this kind is to sit outside, drink and feel the air, the wind, the Sun; hear the birds. One can just wonder, how is this stereotype can keep us from enjoying life:)) PS: The summer comes, The honorable fight. One year and two days ago, the first entry of this version came to existence. What has happened since? Much, nothing, who knows? This is something we have to ask ourselves. Are we better than last year? If yes, are we better to ourselves? Are we better to others? Let's not forget the original aspect of all things. We all move on the highway called Time always towards the future. Not a single thing is excluded from this movement. Let's be sure that we all move on the highway called Life always towards happiness and not a single sentient being is excluded as well. Every highway requires some traffic rules in order to ensure safety of all its drivers. Every human being requires some knowledge about this Life in order to ensure safety and well-being of everything around. Shall these Short stories of everything reveal a certain piece of it. Updated Hanshan and Shide. With the traditional New year's day recently past, we shall embrace it the traditional way - by welcoming the spring! So, I guess the time isn't slowing at all, because we just changed the digit on the solar calendar and in a month, we are gonna do the same on the lunar one, saying goodbye to the horse and welcoming the goat on the proverbial throne of fortune. Shall we use this opportunity with the upmost effort to better ourselves not in promises, but in actions; not in show-offs, but in generosity; not in smart-ass-ness, but in wisdom. Shall we care for others more than for ourselves, shall we be freed from suffering by awareness and analysis. The non-existence of drumrolls.
How about something called "Stay calm".
Let's find out about this world, let's find out about Our selves. For those of you who love natural poetry of old times, I shall attempt to translate some of my two favorite poets' work. Hanshan and Shide. updated: 19/4/23 C'mon, don't stay inside! Get out! Enjoy the Warm fall. The summer came by pretty quickly this year. It was a cold one. But today, it came again, probably to say goodbye:-). Time to unlock the silence. What we want and what we need. Two aspects. So different, yet sharing one (point of) origin. Let our-selves be prudent and ful to all things our subconsciousness seek. It is said: "One should not dwell even on not-dwelling, therefore it might not be totally bad to dwell on something sometimes:-). Shall that be our inner happiness. I am sitting outside again and trying to live through these few moments in spring. Neither the first, nor the last Ode to the Tea. When you wake up in the morning, make yourself some fine , sit somewhere you feel comfortable and read this small ode To the Sun, To the Tea. People who think "It is bliss" will never learn to overcome their fears. Let's have a about ignorance. To ease the mood here a little bit, enjoy reading a few pieces called To the spirit of Nature. Commercials, cigarettes, lifestyle is one of my first essays, which I wrote when I was 16. Even-though this one is a translation of the original work, it's not a particularly good one. It's rather deeply inspired by the original, updated with some new points. In the search for happiness in our everyday life.
After sometime I’m sitting once again in a vietnamese tearoom/restaurant that tries to look like inside of a temple, having the traditional 3 buddhas in a row and one more in front of them, surrounded by flowers, incenses, vases and other kinds of offerings. I used to come here since I learned about it, on the day of my 15th birthday, when my mother took me here for lunch. Then I’d return every once in a while to clear my head and relax. Time flies like one big crazy river and we are similar to small leaves just watching the banks go by. Almost 12,5 years later. Now. This ever changing, yet constant moment guiding us through the whole life. It is said, what’s in the past doesn’t exist anymore, what’s in the future, doesn’t exist yet and what is “now” we cannot grasp anyway. Words of the Bodhidharma - 聖意皆空 - a sage's thoughts [are] all Empty. Now I’m sitting here, unwillingly listening to two people talking at the next table, trying to deepen my patience:-).
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